Wednesday, May 21, 2008

C-R-A-Z-Y

Life is so crazy. Yesterday I was feeling upbeat and productive. Today I feel like I'm going to pop. When I told Steven on the phone tonight that I felt like I was "going to explode", he said I was sounding "a little crazy" and thought I was "going to go postal" on him.

Who knows? Maybe I am crazy. I can not wait to get out of school. Being there makes me feel like a caged animal. I miss Steven beyond reason. It's been over two weeks since I've seen him. What can I say? I miss my boyfriend. I need some hugs and kisses. I need to talk to him face-to-face. I told him even if we were fighting in person it would be better than trying to have a decent conversation over the phone. Does that make me crazy?

Then I go to pick up Joseph from a friend's house and something was not right. I don't know what exactly, I just know something wasn't right. I am almost always right about these things. Sometimes I get the whole story, sometimes I don't. But I have learned to trust my intuition. So, I ask him a few questions and I get WAY too much answer. Suspiciously detailed. So now he's mad at me too. Then my mom calls and he drags HER into it, and now even my own mother is acting like I'm crazy.

I need a vacation. I need to get away from ALL of these people. I need to spend time with Steven without any children or any phone calls or any responsibility. I never get away. I am never alone.

I

Am

Going

Crazy.


J.

By the way, see below for a really great post about all the terrific things I got done yesterday that I thought was awesome but only one person (Steven) commented on. One! Where are you people?

8 comments:

Trukindog said...

Yesterday - 1,5,7,8,9 sounded good and about 9, catholics have a saint for eeeeeeeeevvvvrry thing don't they :)

To be human is to be crazy...to some degree.

Palm Springs Savant said...

everyone needs a hug now and then..I hope you get one soon J hang in there

Jay said...

We all go a little crazy every once in a while.

Sayre said...

I need a vacation too... just can't afford one. I've been trying to catch up - life is busy, busy, busy. Strife at work, strife at home... I'm hoping things will level out all around soon.

Just Dave said...

You need a day at the spa. Massage, facial, float in a hot tub with nice smells. This will return you to sanity and all for less than $100, I think. If you can't do that, then lock the door to your bedroom, put in some earplugs and float in your own tub.

trkndude299 said...

Should I be afraid?

I know I'm worried.

Yea Me!
A lone commenter. For a short time anyway.

We never did get to the root of your anxiety issues.

Oh, and Mom's are like that. Your's is no different than most others.

HoosierGirl5 said...

T-dog - Yes, Catholics DO have a saint for everything. And we're darn proud of it!

And if to be crazy is to be human, then I am one of the most human on the planet these days.

P.S.S. - I need a plane ticket out to see you and your adorable dogs. Care to send me one?

Jay - Oh it is so true....

Sayre - I can't afford nuthin' no more. (sigh)

Just Dave - I'm taking up a collection. Send Hoosier Girl to the spa for a day. Care to contribute? (grin)

Sweet T-dude - Proceed at your own risk. The root of my anxiety is about to be cleared up tomorrow evening! I can't wait to see you!

J.

Canadian flake said...

If it helps I think we all have days like that...hope you got some hugs and kisses to help out...or at least some alcohol....lol.

Hang in there.