I am so tired and so confused. Why does caring about anyone have to be so complicated? How do you turn feelings on and off? What do you do when you can't turn them off?
I know this post doesn't make sense. But all these mixed-up emotions are exactly why I swear I'm never going to date again. Until I get lonely. I don't know how to "take things slow". I don't know how to care about someone, and yet NOT care if I talk to him or not, not care if I see him or not. How are you connected and detached at the same time?
And what about old loves? Do you ever stop loving them? Or are they always part of who you are? How do you stop thinking about someone? Can anyone tell me how to turn my brain off? Please?
I need to go to bed. I'm so tired.....