Thanks, everyone, for all your encouraging words last night. You were right. I was really tired. And I forgot that it was almost "that time of the month". I'm always really emotional a few days before. Which would explain why I cried for no apparent reason on Saturday, and was almost in tears several times yesterday. Ironically, now that "my friend" has come (this very morning), I won't be as emotional. Good thing.
What was confusing to me is that I don't know how to play "the dating game" very well. If Gary is really my friend first, as Silver Willow says all good relationships start out being, then I shouldn't have to wonder why he didn't call or e-mail yesterday. I could just call him up and say, "Hey, what's going on?" I shouldn't have to worry about calling too much, or letting him "pursue" me. I know he is worried about going too fast, because he was burned in his last relationship. And no contact for one day is no big deal. Don't tell me to be patient and take it slow. I know, I know, I know. I guess I do know how to play the game - I just don't like the rules.
Second, Baron called me last night (couldn't you just see that coming?). Every time he calls I get confused. I can't stop caring about him. But my feelings, whatever they are, confuse me, especially now in relationship to all these new feelings for Gary. When Gary and I were out Saturday night, I felt that "tingle" you get when you meet someone you really like, that "wow, this could be something" feeling. Which is why it's hard to tone that feeling down to "go slow".
Anyway, I have the whole week to wrestle with all this, because Saturday is the soonest I could see Gary again (if he even asks). But I just wanted to tell you all I feel better this morning.
A good night's sleep and a shower in the morning do wonders.