Sunday, December 10, 2006
The Holiday Blues....
That is the question of the hour, folks: Have you been naughty or nice? Are you a Scrooge or a Grinch?
I'm not a Scrooge. I believe in celebrating Christmas. I buy the tree, put up the lights, send the cards. I participate in all kinds of Christmas festivities and encourage my kids to do so. I spend generously on others.
But I have been a Grinch, lately.
I haven't been enjoying the holiday season like I should. It sometimes feels like a chore. I'm so busy and so tired. And I'm a little down in the dumps.
What do you do, as an intelligent, rational adult, when someone says or does something that hurts your feelings, even though you know they have a right to say or do what they're doing, and although you wish they acted or felt differently, you aren't going to try to change them? You just don't like it, whatever it is. And as hard as you try to talk your self logically out of being oversensitive and childish, you're still hurt.
I have been wishing for a magical Christmas. For words to be said, for feelings to be felt, for miracles to happen. I wish for it every year, for this to be the best Christmas. And it isn't going to happen. At least not this year. Maybe never. And I feel let down. Sad.
I did get some Christmas shopping done this weekend. I can't for the life of me lay my hands on one of those Nintendo Wii's for Daniel. He is piling all of his Christmas from me, his dad, and his grandparents just to get it, and I seem to be one step behind every shipment. If anyone out there sees one, BUY IT! You will have your money back in 24 hours!
Another thing that got me down yesterday is ,that apparently I will be orchestrating my present from the kids to me again. Just once could I be surprised? Really amazingly surprised?! Not cheap candles and sweaters surprised, either. (Sigh)
Okay, I'm done being a Scrooge. It's not all that bad. I saw my two oldest perform tonight in the Providence Singers. They both sang and danced fantastically. I was so proud of both of them. I only have 5 days of school and then I have 2 weeks off. I got the lights on the tree and we have started putting the ornaments on. I love a lit Christmas tree at night.
I promise to be much more upbeat the next post. Have a great week, all.
Let it snow!!!
Posted by Jodi at 11:35 PM