Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Sometimes I Feel Like a Nut......



It is entirely possible that there is something very wrong with me. I got mad at a woman at work today, one of the chef's from the other end of the deli, a "prima dona" who has always been a little nuts and talks constantly about her lesbian lover. She has refused in the past to sweep and mop the floor (even though everyone else does) until someone "told on her" and she had to, and tonight she refused to take out a bag of trash, saying it was " not hers".


And I let her have it. I told her to grow up and act like an adult and do the work that needs to be done simply because it needs to be done, like most everyone else in that department does. And when she complained that someone"ratted her out" (her exact words) for not sweeping and mopping, I congratulated her for actually stepping up to the plate and doing her job tonight. And when she said she wasn't taking out the bag of trash, I said, "Fine, G., don't take it out. Because we're not either. And when they come in in the morning and it's sitting there, who do you think they'll blame?" Real mature, right? I actually argued back at her, actually got mad over a stupid bag of trash. I should be above that. You should have seen the looks on the faces of the two other sweet little old ladies I was working with.


Lord, I think I might be going crazy. I can't seem to get along with anyone these days. I'm oversensitive and prickly and everyone seems to bug me. Maybe it's working 2 jobs - which will end on Thursday because after the 2 day training tomorrow and Thursday, I won't have any school stuff to do until the end of July. Maybe it's all the crazy people I work with at K**ger. One woman gets in a huff if anyone is scheduled on what she considers HER shift. Another woman came to work under the definite influence of pot. The assistant dept. manager is also gay, talks about her girlfriend all the time, and is raising pet rats. Last night a woman was incredibly rude to me and another worker. It's a different world than what I'm used to.


Or maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm finally completely cracking up. My finances are still in the crapper. I can't afford any resemblance of a vacation. Steven won't even let me go on the road with him because I need to stay here and work every minute I can. And every morning I wake up with my right hand tingly and numb and feeling like it's on fire from the inside. And despite my efforts, my house is NOT getting cleaner and more organized. In fact, in some areas it looks WORSE!

I'm telling you, I don't think it's them.


It's me.


I'm a nut.

J.

9 comments:

Brother Dave said...

Well… you were right to tell your co-worker that she needed to pull her weight with the shared responsibilities. And sometimes getting mad is the best response.

What you are experiencing in the non-professional work environment is not uncommon. One of my daughters-in-law tells horror stories about behavior of her co-workers.

Of course, you still could be crazy. ;-)

Sushiboy said...

Ugh, hope things improve!

Superwoman said...

I agree with brother dave, that is why the professional work world is so nice. You run into ALL types in jobs like the one at K****r (been there, done that). Good luck and hang in there! Things can only get better right?!

Sayre said...

There's all kinds of fruitcakes in the professional world too - they just hide it better.

I think you are overtired, overstressed and overworked. I get that way sometimes too - and my husband SWEARS he married a crazy woman. Luckily, he kind of likes that crazy side of me.

I hope that once the school bit is over you'll feel a bit more relaxed and be able to enjoy the summer a little more - in spite of the crazed co-workers.

karisma said...

Yep! Your a nut alright! But hey come on its fun sometimes right??? Coz you know once we are defined as a nut, we can pretty much get away with anything! heheheheheehe!

Now me I would have just told her to put the damn trash out and if she really pissed me off I probably would have emptied it on her head and then made her clean it up AND take it out. Hey Im nice but even I have my limits!

OH and PS. There are dickheads in ALL industries, they just have different ways of showing it! Now here is what you do next time.....Stick out your tongue and blow a big raspberry at her! If the shock does not get her she will just think you really are nuts and She WILL take out that trash! Trust me! Im so mature in my old age! hehehe!

Big Big hugs and smoochies xxxxoooooxxx

Finn said...

For what it's worth, good for you. I'm sick of assholes who think they can get away with shit they rest of us can't.

That being said, I think you're tired, stressed-out and... don't know about the hand thing. That could be stress too. Go easy on yourself, darlin'. Things will change soon and maybe you'll start to feel better. Take some time for you! xo

Blondefabulous said...

It's not you , hon. It's them. Some people have no other life than work and that's where they get their drama. As for the customers..... they just enjoy being bossy. Probably the only time in life they get to be.... jerks.

Hoosier Girl said...

Brother Dave - Thanks for the reassurance. Still, I wish I had been a little more mature about the whole thing. I find the "non-professional work environment" unsettling.

Sushi - Me, too.

Superwoman - The only definitive way it can get better is if someone gives me $10, 000. Other than that, I just have to keep plugging along.

Sayre - I think I'm overworked, overtired, and overstressed, too. But there's nothing I can do about it right now. And I'm not sure Steven likes it when I'm crazy.

Karisma - It would be fun to be a little crazy, if it didn't feel so SCARY. And believe me, if she pushes me anymore, I WILL tell her exactly what I think - right before I QUIT!!! Thanks for the support. You made me laugh!

Finn - "me" time? What's that? Ha, ha. I'll try.

Blondefabulous - I just need to order a great big bottle of chill pills, and I'll be fine. Thanks for making me feel better.

J.

Fleur de Lisa said...

Honestly, all of that sh1t would make me crazy too. Hang in there and I hope it gets better.