Sunday, August 05, 2007

I Had A Dream......

Most of you know about all the diet changes I've been making in the last month. A big "no-no" is anything with chocolate. As a result, I haven't had a candy bar of any kind in quite awhile.

Last night I dreamt that I had somehow forgotten that tomorrow was Halloween. So I needed to rush to the store to get candy and a costume for Aaron. Somewhere along the way, it changed into it was almost Valentine's Day, and Aaron didn't have any Valentines to take to school the next day. So I was in a store that looked a lot like Walmart (which is strange, because I don't shop at Walmart), and I was grabbing bags of candy off the shelves.

But then, I started eating those mini Snickers bars one after another. After I had had several, I suddenly thought, "Hey, I'm not supposed to be eating these!" But I didn't stop. They were soooo good, I just kept eating them. And in the back of my mind I was thinking, "Oh, this is really going to hurt tomorrow."

What do you all think this means (besides my obvious craving for a Snickers bar)?
I am open for dream analysis.

J.

14 comments:

Yorksdevil said...

I think it means you secretly want to muder the Pope. I'm not an expert though, so I could be wrong.

Sayre said...

I had withdrawal dreams when I quit smoking. I think you're having the same thing. Only your's tastes better...

Tricia said...

I agre with sayre - I had smoking dreams when I quit. I also think you could be craving carrots. Call me crazy.

Just Dave said...

Definitely all about sex in some form.

Brother Dave said...

J - You originally were going to the store for Halloween treats and a costume for Aaron. Then your dream switched to Valentines candy and cards for Aaron. This might relate to a desire for "romance" in your life [thus, valentines].

Still candy [anything with chocolate] was foremost, so you definitely were making up for your dietary deprivation.

Since you never shop at Wal-Mart, and the store in your dream was very Wal-Mart-like, you might have suppressed guilt for boycotting that business.

Or, none of the above is true, and you simply had the type of crazy dream I always have.

At least you had "sweet dreams," a wish often conferred on someone at bedtime.

SilverWillow said...

There are two threads that run through this dream. First is your sense of love and protection for your son, Aaron. In your dream you are feeling guilty about not having the Halloween candy, or Valentines. These relate to the inner guilt you feel about the diet changes that yourself and Aaron are doing. You feel guilty that your son is deprived in some way, from what other children are doing or eating. Second, you are feeling fear that you are not strong enough to adhere to the diet plan, and in your dream you act out being weak and eating all the snickers.
I think your dream shows your desire to want all the best for Aaron and your sense that you don't want to deprive him of anything in life, and the diet change has you inwardly feeling guilty. I think it also reflects your inner fear that you want to be strong enough to be an example to him through this life change.
It clearly shows to me what an immensely wonderful parent that you are, in that you want nothing but to protect your son and make sure he is happy, and that you are afraid you won't be strong enough to be the good example you want to be.
Having the fear of not being strong enough of an example is the sign of a very loving and wonderful parent.

HoosierGirl5 said...

York - I knew I could count on you. (for a goofy answer!)

Sayre - I do miss chocolate.

Tricia - I definitely do not crave carrots. Where have you been, by the way?

Just Dave - Unfortunately, dreams about sex are all I am having these days! (grin)

Brother Dave - All I know is, I DO miss chocolate, and I DON'T feel guilty about boycotting Walmart. It would have been sweeter if I could have just a little taste.....

Silver Willow - First of all, thank you for the compliments. I do try really hard to be a good parent. You have come closest to what I think it's about. I worry a lot about not being a good enough parent, to all of the kids, but especially Aaron, because his life has been so different from the way I raised the other kids in their earlier years. And I am worried that once we get back to school and get busy, I won't be as consistent as I have been. And I worry about "slipping" - having one little bite or drink of something I'm trying to do without, and then completely giving in.

Thanks, everyone, for your ideas. You've given me a lot of insight.

J.

e.Craig said...

I had a recurring dream when I sought help for an addiction many years ago. I had firmly resolved to turn my life around, and that dream was almost like a nightmare because I was using my drug of choice with the sudden realization that I had "slipped." Awakening to reality was quite a relief.

I have documented a number of my recent dreams, and some are quite strange. That changing scene must be quite common in dreams. At least it's true of mine.

I don't think I can add anything to the analysis of your dream. Just one thing maybe. Since Snickers is my favorite candy bar, it's my opinion that your dream reveals that you are a person of discriminating taste.   ;-)

HoosierGirl5 said...

Craig - Of course I am a person of discriminating taste - I like you, don't I? ;)

And I DO love Snickers!!!

J.

Fleur de Lisa said...

I can't say that I've ever had a dream about candy. I know you aren't supposed to have it, but do you think that you are making it too forbidden in your mind? We always want what we can't have...

e.Craig said...

J - Good point.   :-)

Canadian flake said...

Hang in there. You are doing a great job modifying your eating habits. Just remember not to beat yourself up if you cheat a bit or get a bit lazy...take it in baby steps and you will be fine. Keep up the good work.

Jay said...

At least you weren't chased by a giant Snickers bar down the street or corned in a dark alley by one. LOL

My mother had smoking dreams for a looooooong time after she quit smoking.

Tricia said...

Hey girl! I have been trying to catch up on life - now I'm back :)