Let me just preface this by saying that this post is very important to me. It didn't start out to be anything much, but it really means a lot to me. I spent a lot of time on it, and it is like a musical scrapbook of the significant relationships of my life. I know it's long, but I think it's worth it.Thanks for reading.
The other day I posted my first YouTube video, a song I like called "Bad Day" by Daniel Powter. Finding Heart commented that this was a hard song for him to hear, because of the memories it brought back of time with his wife. It got me thinking about what music reminds me of former loves in my life. Here is a musical retrospective of my love life:
This song was popular in the 80's, when I first met my first husband. It is the only song that definitively reminds me of him, although it's not painful to hear. God, I used to love "America"!
America - You can do magic
After my divorce, I didn't date for almost a year. I met Ricky on the Internet and at first refused to go out with him because he was a smoker. But we stayed in touch via e-mail, and only after I dinged my van and was lamenting over the damage, did we arrange a meeting, because he was a friend and he said he would help. Turns out he was a lot cuter in person than the pic he had posted on his profile, and I was in serious crush. He made two lasting impacts on my life: he introduced me to country music, and he was the first boyfriend to break my heart. This song was popular when we were together and the line that will always remind me of him is "Every time our eyes meet, this feeling inside me, is almost more than I can bear". Good or bad, right or wrong, when he looked in my eyes, my stomach did somersaults. It WAS "amazing".
I've written quite a bit here about Larry, my second husband. We didn't have much of a marriage, but we DID have a very romantic courtship. He used to sing this song to me when we would wake up in the morning together, and I still have trouble hearing it.
Steve Holy - Good Morning Beautiful
When Larry and I got married, we just had a small ceremony at his house. My sister's husband, Joe, made us a video and he put this song to it. As I listened to it just now, I realized that it applies much more to the love I have with Baron than it did to Larry. But it is a part of our history together. I can't hear this song without thinking of that video, and remembering my wedding day. We were so full of hope back then, for a new life for both of us.(rueful smile)
When you say nothing at all
After Larry and I separated, we didn't file for divorce right away. He was having health problems and was going to need by-pass surgery. My health insurance through the school system was much better than anything he had available, so he was on my work policy. If we had divorced, he would have had to be dropped, so we stayed legally married for 8 months after separating so he could have his surgery covered, and all the post-surgery needs. AND, I was still in love with him. I was still hoping for a reconciliation. So I didn't date anyone seriously for over a year.
When I did venture out into the world again, now with 2 divorces behind me, the first man I met who gave me that "this one has real possibilities" tingle was Irvin. I know, geeky name, but he was very attractive and a successful businessman. We were quite the item for a couple of months, and this song was OUR song. To this day, I think of him when I hear Sara Evans.
Sara Evans - A real fine place to start
After Irvin, I took another long break from the dating scene...then ventured back to the personals sites. Last November, I met Steve. I was the very first date he had, post-divorce, and we fell into a serious crush almost immediately. I was concerned that he hadn't dated at all, and in the end that was what pulled us apart. Even though things didn't work out with him, I still think God introduced us for a reason. I learned a lot from the time we were "in love", and I am glad we met. And because things were not working out with him, I was advised to get back out there in the world and stay "busy". Because of that advice, I met the love of my life, Baron! This is the song that reminds me of Steve:
Bless the Broken Road
If Baron and I have a song, it's one of these two. A few months back, we were part of a webgroup that followed a book of themed days. One of the days was "Serenade Someone". I made a big deal out of it, saying that he probably wouldn't serenade me without a six pack of beer! He surprised me by singing THIS song to me. The video portion isn't good, but at least you can hear the song.
All I know
One of the joys of my relationship with Baron is the comforting snuggling. Baron has sung this one to me a couple of times, and it reminds me oh-so-much of the wonderful feeling I get when we are snuggled in bed together, my head on his shoulder.(smile)
Paul Anka Put your Head On my shoulder
Thanks for taking a musical trip through my love life.