I am feeling a little strange today....I can't put my finger on it exactly. I just know that one series of thoughts that keeps running through my mind is, "I want to be special. I want to be unique. I don't want to be like everyone else. I want to be different. I don't want to be one in a series, I don't want to be just like the one before, or the one after, I want to be the best! I want to be number 1!"
I guess to be truthful, I DO know, in part, where some of this is coming from, but unfortunately I can't write about it here. Some people would use it against me, or wouldn't understand. I just can't stand being the next one in line. I want my life and my loves to be special and unique, not ordinary and typical. And I definitely don't want to be like anyone before. I think I've been an extraordinarily good sport in that department, but I'm done with that.
Also I'm worried about my new teaching position. I have always been good at what I do, and I'm so afraid I won't be good at this. I hate to fail.
My house is a mess and I feel overwhelmed by how much there is to do. I'm worried about money and back-to-school expenses....
I guess it's just one of those days.
3 comments:
Sounds like you know you'll be good at the position, just that you're in a mental down. Give it a day to make a plan, then kick it. :)
I have been having one of those days all week! Hang in there, it will get better.
You will be awesome at your job because you are awesome!
thanks guys...you really pick me up when i need it.
(big smile)
j.
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