Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Special and Unique
I am feeling a little strange today....I can't put my finger on it exactly. I just know that one series of thoughts that keeps running through my mind is, "I want to be special. I want to be unique. I don't want to be like everyone else. I want to be different. I don't want to be one in a series, I don't want to be just like the one before, or the one after, I want to be the best! I want to be number 1!"
I guess to be truthful, I DO know, in part, where some of this is coming from, but unfortunately I can't write about it here. Some people would use it against me, or wouldn't understand. I just can't stand being the next one in line. I want my life and my loves to be special and unique, not ordinary and typical. And I definitely don't want to be like anyone before. I think I've been an extraordinarily good sport in that department, but I'm done with that.
Also I'm worried about my new teaching position. I have always been good at what I do, and I'm so afraid I won't be good at this. I hate to fail.
My house is a mess and I feel overwhelmed by how much there is to do. I'm worried about money and back-to-school expenses....
I guess it's just one of those days.
Posted by Jodi at 10:44 AM