Saturday, February 10, 2007
Life is so confusing......
I am confused.
About many things.
This is who I thought I was:
A single woman, with great kids, a little overweight but not too bad to look at, funny, smart, pretty good at what I do, but with plenty still to learn, easy to get along with, a little sexy, generous, honest, sensitive (maybe a little too sensitive at times), sometimes quick to fly off the handle, but also quick to apologize, a good teacher. Overall, a pretty good catch.
Here's what I've discovered in the last month or so, from various sources: I AM single, and most likely to stay that way, since no one is queing up in that department. I DO have great kids. I AM a little overweight and not bad to look at. I am "nice", good for cuddling, and at least a little sexy. But according to some sources, I am also "a loose canon", a "pychobitch" and a "skank".
Go HERE to read one person's opinion of me, and my boyfriend. Read it, don't read it. Comment, don't comment. Admit you know me, or don't. I don't care, really. This blog is written by Baron's ex-wife's fiance. He found a website with his name and address on it and immediately made the lightspeed jump to assume it was me.
Let's just state for the record, right here and now:
I had nothing to do with it.
But you know, that's not really the issue. The issue, for me, is this man's willingness to believe that it HAD to be me (because, in his opinion, and his fiance's, I am horrible and not to be trusted), and the vitriolic way he responded. He claims, that since someone put his personal information on the Internet, that person endangered the children who live with him. I maintain that if he didn't shoot his mouth off all over the Internet, NO ONE would be endangered. So, to get back to my original picture of myself, apparently I am NOT honest, smart, easy to get along with, and definitely NOT a good catch. Baron, talking with his ex and this man, was told today that "he could do better". His response was to say "You should talk", but he didn't deny it. Maybe he can do better. I don't know.
To say that I am insulted would be an understatement. I'm not even sure how to explain all the feelings I have. I'm sad, I'm hurt, I'm angry. I don't know what to do. I want to post a comment, a denial, on his blog, but I don't want to get into that "he said, she said" bickering. It won't make it go away. Instead it will just fan the flames.
So, I sit here and type, attempting to get it all out of my system.
Maybe, until I get all these thoughts and feelings sorted out, I should just post a sign on my front:
DAZED AND CONFUSED.